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more dreams [Sep. 23rd, 2012|10:39 am]
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More noteworthy dreams... it seems that's all I'm even bothering to log in for anymore these days. XP

The night before last, I had a dream about hanging out with Savannah. She and I were at her house (which was exponentially bigger in my dream, and at a super fancy location, of course), and we were drawing - she was working so fast, literally filling every page of her sketch book. I was not.

Last night, I had a similar dream, except this time I wasn't actually there, Bill was hanging out with her, and they were drawing and she was crazy fast again. I had to be there vicariously through Bill, when he showed me what they had worked on. I think I was actually in jail for some reason. lol

Not exactly the same dream, but noteworthy in my book for a few reasons:
1 - It just reminded me of what a beast Savannah is at her art. And I mean it in the best possible way. She is this amazing, unstoppable creature! Like a unicorn, but not even just one - she works with more passion and force - like a whole herd of unicorns. lol I am completely jealous of how good she is, the quality she puts into her work, and how quickly she can manage to do it. I love it, she is incredible, and I strive to get to a similar place one day.

2 - It reminded me that I haven't actually gotten to hang out with her in AGES. I miss watching movies and having lunches or dinners and talking with her. I miss going to her place and seeing the rad things she's been working on lately and being so inspired by it. I miss her. And Travis. We gotta hang out as soon as this whole moving thing is done with!

3 - While they weren't exactly the same dream, the similarities were too common to say they were entirely separate. And that only really matters in my case because I think this is the first dream I've ever had that's actually made a comeback. I've never had reoccurring dreams. It's weird.

So, yeah. Stuff.


Also, last night, I had another dream that Bill and I got re-married. Well, not re-married, I guess, we just were having a more different first wedding. :3 But it was a ton of fun. Bigger than our wedding was, so we had all our buddies there. And I think it was on some kind of small cruise ship. Awesome. :)
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14 years, 1 month, 19 days [Aug. 10th, 2012|02:15 pm]
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Bye, Deedlit. You were a beautiful cat and a wonderful character. I miss you like hell already.
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floods and death [Jun. 29th, 2012|10:49 pm]
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Good lord, I haven't been here in ages. D: I desperately need to update...


For the time being, I am just dropping in to document the weird dream I had last night.

I can't put my finger on exactly where I was. It was a place that I've never been to, a place that may not actually exist, but one that felt really familiar. It felt right to be there. It felt like home.
It was a small area. Everything was flooding. The water had risen so fast, I couldn't get my vehicle across, so I had to just get out and wade through the water.
It was already up to my waist.
The water was really clear. And even though it came on suddenly, the current was actually really minor. I didn't feel any danger in it at all. It was like wading through a pool.
I remember it being very comfortable. Nice temperature. I thought "I could just stay here for a while..."

And then the bodies started coming.
Fish were in the water now. Underwater, still submerged, but somehow I knew they were dead. And dead butterflies coated the surface. Then three sea turtles floated past. Also dead. I touched them as they passed. Their shells felt exactly as I imagined they would (although, it was a dream, so that makes perfect sense).
I remember the sudden onset of feelings. It was still so comfortable, but the mood had changed entirely. I remember thinking "Oh god, what happened?" "I need to get OUT of the water NOW"
Even with the terror I was feeling, the natural history nerd in me still wanted to grab all the critters I could for wall mounting later. lol
But I remember the current getting stronger. I remember struggling to get through the water. And, though I don't think he was even in any part of my dream, I remember desperately searching for Bill, before it ended.
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In related news... [Oct. 15th, 2011|02:58 am]
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The show tonight went really nicely, I think. It was fun to get dressed up, even though my skin is pissed about the makeup now. And seeing everyone else in their various levels of costume was awesome. Got to see Savannah and Diana, both cute as ever, that's always great. Lovely arts! A string quartet played some of my dad's original music, as well as some more well known pieces. :) Lots of fun, overall.

My papercraft buggies seem to be pretty successful! Savannah even decided to buy one! :D *flattered and excited!!* I'll have to make more. I did have a handful of others planned that I didn't get to, so I'll have to try for those next (as well as making another death's head hawk moth, since I am particularly happy with how he turned out!) Should be fun to pose them differently, too - their wings can be in various degrees of splay.
I suppose this is actually probably a perfect thing to concentrate on for Christmas, since I want to make more anyway... (and since I have no money to buy people things and all...)

Requests or suggestions? If anyone has a favorite bug, let me know. :P
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the good kind [Oct. 10th, 2011|07:56 pm]
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Been going to the dentist a bunch lately, getting a fuckton of tooth work out of the way before my insurance runs out. We're a good two-thirds of the way through it, I'm going in on the 24th to start the last set, and after that is done all that's left is a good cleaning.

Pulling some really long nights lately. Working on my stuff for the show coming up, which I'm pretty excited about. Finished them up on Saturday (technically Sunday, as I was at the shop working until about 4:30 in the morning), and I've got most of them framed. Gotta finish that part, too. Perhaps tomorrow, although I won't be able to stay late as I'll be attending the first of the corset classes in the evening. So probably Wednesday. I'm just going into this week assuming it'll be long and busy. It's been a stressful ordeal, but definitely fun. Tried something entirely new for this show, and I really like the results. :3

Supposedly, Jared is visiting next week. Exciting on several levels, as he's never been here before, he's never been on a plane, I haven't seen him in 9 years... Should be fun. :B

Oh! And, I made pancakes this morning, and they turned out perfectly. It was awesome.
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Warp Nine : Engage [Sep. 25th, 2011|07:14 pm]
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Arhar. Star Trek reference.



hokay so.

Bill asked me to marry him :D
And I said yes :D

Weeee~!
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heads up [Sep. 18th, 2011|04:03 pm]
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After a celebratory dim sum brunch (Mom and Dad's 39th wedding anniversary), I went on a trip to Pacific Fabrics with my mom today, and it looks like they are doing a corset-making class in October. Think we might sign up. Sounds pretty badass. I thought I'd post about it here on the off chance one of you will read this and want in, too. :3 It's a little pricey, but not unreasonable - 60 dollars for the three-course class (Tuesdays October 11th, 18th, and 25th) from 6-8:30, and then supplies.

In the mean time, we bought a bit of blueness for me to try making a nice hair thing to go with my adorable shirt waist dress that I've been dying to wear (still need to find the right shoes...), and we browsed pattern books in hopes of being able to make more cute retro-y dresses, since I fucking love those and don't really own any other than just the one I bought recently, but the one I fell in love with was petite sized. Which I am definitely not. DX

I keep getting more and more ideas for the masquerade show next month, but being a wiener and not getting any of it done. I gotta get on that! My dad's been working on more music, and he's been rehearsing with a string quartet to play some of it at the show! That should be really neat.

It's a tired, lazy day. I'm looking forward to a good night's sleep.
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rad [Sep. 1st, 2011|08:16 pm]
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I think I might have had the world's raddest dream last night.

Savannah and I were hanging out, running an errand at Fred Meyer. It was around Christmas time, cause everything was decorated all fancily. Then we ran into Stephen Colbert!? Had an awesome time chatting, and the three of us went back to what I assume was my place, cause my cats were there. We had an in depth conversation about them, while decorating the Christmas tree...?

Hell yes. lol
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wut [Jul. 31st, 2011|07:59 pm]
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Dear Bowflex Treadclimber commercial wench,

36 pounds does not equal 8 dress sizes. What the hell is wrong with you?

Sincerely,
Tasia
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(no subject) [Jul. 14th, 2011|12:06 am]
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Spent the day helping out at the frame shop, and then once the shop was closed, I finished up a present for Savannah.
Then, drove over to her new place (which is looking gorgeous and home-ly!) to surprise her with it! :D Got to see her and her hubby, all of their many pets, and I got to meet her mom and dad (and their adorable min pin) since they are here for a visit! :D It was a fantastic time. ^_^
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FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF--- [Jul. 6th, 2011|09:17 pm]
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So, I'm pretty sure that F is my favorite letter. I like the way it feels on my lips. Like a timid lip bite with a sigh behind it. I like that.

So many fantastic words start with f. I suppose there are some good ones with f in the middle somewhere, too. But I won't belittle it by sandwiching it between other, lesser, letters. I won't consider those here.

Needless to say, fuck is one of my favorite words.
I also quite enjoy saying fag.
There are a number of other, less offensive words that begin with an f that I'm fond of, too. And if fag weren't so hurtful to a specific group of people, I'd probably say it all the time. Cause, really, I like gay people just fine. But that word is fucking fun to say.

But it's a tragically ugly letter. Like a busty girl with little to no ass, it is awkward and top heavy. And, while I know there are many a man who would say that's fine by them, I like a bit more balance to my anatomy than that. So, aesthetically, I'd have to say that S is probably my favorite.

:B
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(no subject) [May. 16th, 2011|01:27 am]
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Fuck, I'm getting terrible about updating this...

March was fun. Mostly filled with new Pokemon. Not especially note-worthy other than that.

April was neat. Made a RIDICULOUS amount of art for the show, so I got a full wall for my stuff. 25 pieces I think? Somewhere around that. I felt incredibly accomplished with that. Got to meet Arphalia, which was emotionally exciting. He seems pretty awesome - don't know why I'd even doubt it, if Savannah is buddies with someone, I think it's safe to assume they are. Saw Suckerpunch, pretty neat.

And this month has been ...hmm. Can't think of a good word for that one. Been busy trying to work on my 30/30 pieces - I'm behind, unsurprisingly, but it's not going too terribly. I've gotten really good at making split pea soup. Fucking orgasmic, I love that shit. Rosemary grilled cheese and a bowl of pea soup? Best. Lunch. Ever. Although, pairing it with one of Bill's burgers was pretty phenomenal, too. Bill and I watched HP and the Half Blood Prince last night, all the while adding our own commentary, which was incredibly entertaining.
Been feeling on and off crummy the last few days. Stomach aches coming in waves. Nothing major, but I suppose I'll mention it nonetheless.
And I just rewatched Secretary. Haven't seen that in a few years. :B Good times.
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T.T [Feb. 25th, 2011|05:46 pm]
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I hate it when something reminds me of Kitty Boy and I start crying.

._. I miss him.
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ten days later... [Feb. 14th, 2011|01:29 am]
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Birthday trip was rad. Which I needed after drilling into my thumb the day before leaving. Even when I plan for an awesome birthday, I manage to fuck it up somehow lol

Rented a really nice car Friday morning, picked Liz and JohnBradley up, drove to Portland, fell in love with a ton of stuff at Paxton Gate. Ended up getting a beautiful mint colored leaf bug, a turtle skull that looks suspiciously dinosaur-like, some glass eyes, a pin for Bill, and a couple of things for Savannah since she was unable to come. Went to Powell's and found a book that I had wanted for a while, and discovered a couple others. Basically ended up spending all available money within a period of just a few hours. Got back in the car and drove for a while, so we'd have less distance to drive the next day. Liz found those fake-butterfly-in-a-jar things at a Walgreens (wtf), and bought me one, and then we got back on the road again. Stayed at a Best Western, went in the hot tub for a bit, watched terrible tv, had trouble sleeping for... various reasons. Got up and had a nice pancake breakfast, despite not being a huge fan of sweet food first thing in the morning. Drove down to Winston, went through the Wildlife Safari, which was awesome because since we were there earlier in the day this time, a lot more of the animals were basically just hanging out on the road. Got a really good view of a giraffe's armpit, got freaked out by the bison, see some elk's adorable neckbeards, hang out with the crazy emus. Drove back up to Portland, went to Ikea, which ended up being mildly pointless but fun, nonetheless, and then back to Paxton Gate for a second run. Then drove home Saturday night.
Scads of fun, which I fully intend to do again. Next time with more time allowance, and some side trips, including Crater Lake.

Sunday, we picked Diana up and went to South Center for a few hours for the Pokemon Black and White promotional thing, bought a few things, won a few others, and then headed down to Tacoma mall to check out their Pokemon Center. All in all, a successful weekend, and I got a bunch of exercise.

And, as if the weekend hadn't been awesome enough, I had the presence of mind to have Bill take Monday off of work, too, so we still had a day to just lay around like walruses at the end of it. Awe~some.

Spent a few days getting back into the groove of things, helping out at the shop, getting back to regular life.

Then this weekend, Savannah gave me a little Eevee toy, treated me to an Olive Garden dinner, I tried and actually quite enjoyed their calamari, and we hung out for a while. With the exception of her pets having terrible troubles, it was really wonderful to see her again (Although, I'm glad we were there and could help with that part, too). I loved hanging out and chatting with her, watching Record of Lodoss War and having funfetti cake and feeling nostalgic.

Easily the best birthday I've had yet. I'm glad it got drawn out over the course of several days, it made it that much more exciting. And I'm stoked about having been able to basically spend it with all of my best friends. :3
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artz [Feb. 14th, 2011|12:46 am]
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"Nobody tells this to people who are beginners, I wish someone told me. All of us who do creative work, we get into it because we have good taste. But there is this gap. For the first couple years you make stuff, it’s just not that good. It’s trying to be good, it has potential, but it’s not. But your taste, the thing that got you into the game, is still killer. And your taste is why your work disappoints you. A lot of people never get past this phase, they quit. Most people I know who do interesting, creative work went through years of this. We know our work doesn’t have this special thing that we want it to have. We all go through this. And if you are just starting out or you are still in this phase, you gotta know its normal and the most important thing you can do is do a lot of work. Put yourself on a deadline so that every week you will finish one story. It is only by going through a volume of work that you will close that gap, and your work will be as good as your ambitions. And I took longer to figure out how to do this than anyone I’ve ever met. It’s gonna take awhile. It’s normal to take awhile. You’ve just gotta fight your way through."
A thousand times this. It makes me hopeful, and happy to be where I am. I can't remember a time in my life when I didn't draw. When I was a kid, it was just about the process. I loved just doing it. But as I get older, like so much else in life, it just becomes more and more about the results. I hate that. Making a beautiful drawing is always fulfilling, of course, but if it was achieved through a resentful process, it's never quite the same. If I make several sketches for a picture, and I choose one that I'm less than thrilled with, I'll inevitably hate it at some point later in the process. I've certainly grown as an illustrator, but I have so much more to learn. And I want to get back to focusing on the process. I want to get back to a point where I am excited to work on a piece, from beginning to end. I'm definitely headed in the right direction, I just have to keep going.
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an idea [Jan. 13th, 2011|12:04 pm]
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So, since my birthday has tended for the past several years to suffer from lame, I think I'd like to actually DO something for it this year.

What better way to celebrate than to go to the Portland Paxton Gate? :B

Granted, most of the things I'd want to get there are a few hundred dollars or more. But I'm sure that if I can manage to scrounge up a bit of cash before then, I could buy something awesome from the lower price bracket. Judging by the SanFran's store inventory, they should have porcupine quills, ray barbs, lynx tails, some nice skulls, or some rad taxidermy eyes I could use for one of my dolls. Even if they have none of those, I'm sure I'll find SOMEthing within reason.

I'm guessing it'll be the weekend after my birthday, as Thursday is a totally lame day to plan for a small road trip. Maybe Bill could get the Friday before or the Monday after off, just so we can have a bit of extra time? If so, perhaps we could drive through the wildlife safari again. :9 Nothing says happy birthday like a giraffe five feet outside your vehicle. lol

So, the question is: would it be just Bill and myself or shall we make a bigger thing out of it? Would anyone be available and interested to go? I dunno how much gas or a one-night hotel stay would end up being, but I would think it can't be that bad. And more people going can only make it less expensive per person? *shrug*
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materialistic [Dec. 8th, 2010|01:39 pm]
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So, two years ago, I fell in love with this. Completely badass. But considering its being displayed in a gallery, I think it is safe to assume that if it's even for sale, it is probably a one-off piece that costs a billion dollars. Boo. D:
So, I would settle for the not-nearly-as-cool-but-still-pretty-darn-cool thirty dollar substitute here. Someday I hope to have one. It's even marked down to 20 bucks right now. But it's also sold out, so, again. Boo. D:

Among tons of other stuff, I'm also in love with this right now. I want like eight. Or really just one. Maybe two. It's exciting.
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(no subject) [Nov. 30th, 2010|03:18 am]
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remember when you we were kids and you'd get those questions...?
:would you rather fly or turn invisible
:would you rather freeze or burn to death
:would you rather be blind or deaf

Despite my love of color and my working in the visual arts, for one reason or another, I always felt more inclined to go with blindness.

On a semi-related note, as much as I like to think I'm very detail-oriented in my art endeavors, I'm actually really terrible at expressing facial recognition. If I've seen a person before, I'll recognize them readily, so it's not that I forget faces that easily. But I can't grasp specific recognizable features. Not to put into drawings or words. Even if it's some one who I see every day. It's like my mind just goes blank.

Basically, I'd be the worst witness of any crime ever.

Even if Bill did it, I'd be like "... he's tall? blue eyes... has a... face...."
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(no subject) [Jun. 19th, 2010|08:25 pm]
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I periodically start to write entries for this thing, but then I get lazy and lose my train of thought half way through and abandon it.

Quick bursts of thought, just for the sake of getting them out there...

My job is frustrating. People are... retarded. But I approve of the paychecks. It'd be nice if I could get more hours, though.

Love for Liz. My heart goes out to her family. I hope things find a way to work out for the best. T.T <3

omg I need hangouts :[
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fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffuuu- [Apr. 14th, 2010|12:45 am]
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shitty day.

let us hope tomorrow will be better.

*sleeps*
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16 years, 5 weeks. [Apr. 5th, 2010|05:36 pm]
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Shortly after we moved to Washington, my mom came home with a kitten for me. A teeny little black fuzzball, with a little purple ribbon around his neck. My first kitty. And for the past 16 years, he's been my sweet little Kitty Boy.
For two-thirds of my life, he has been there. To welcome me when I got home from school, to cuddle me when I am relaxing. One of the smartest kitties I've ever known, the biggest character, easily the sweetest.
My little black lion's health has taken a terrible turn for the worse, and we are putting him down tomorrow morning. I know that it's for the best, and I don't want him to hurt anymore, but the house will never be the same without him.
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couldn't be more inspiring [Feb. 23rd, 2010|06:24 pm]
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I love the winter olympics. I forget just how much I love watching them until they come back around and I'm just like "FUCK THIS IS AMAZING" lol

Short track speed-skating is ridiculous and amazing. It's my favorite to watch, it has the perfect balance of grace and beauty to it - the flow and way the athletes make it look so effortless - and potential for disaster, with the speed, the aggression, and, you know, that whole blades-on-the-feet thing. The Koreans are hardcore. And Apolo is badass. And freaking adorable. And from Washington. *pride* lol :D

And figure skating is lovely. Some of the dances in particular were just wonderfully done. And it always makes me want to go ice skating, not because I want to try and do all the crazy leaps and stuff (oh, I know I'd die), but just because when they're going it just looks like such a rush. It's like horse back riding. It's fun to watch, but whenever I do, I'd just rather go out and do it myself. Of course, if my knees didn't ache, I'd love to do that again. And I've only tried ice skating once before and I did a terrible job and was just frustrated and retarded. I don't think I can even regular skate, let alone do it on ice. :x
Wouldn't mind trying it again some time, though...
Ice skating judges need to shut the fuck up, though. Seriously. Especially that one woman. She's just an obnoxious bitch. I don't fucking care if you liked it or not, whore, it was still incredible.

Curling is kind of fun, too. The rest I can take or leave, though. I don't care much about the skiing or snowboarding. Hockey is... stupid. lol And luge, skeleton, and bobsledding are just way too EXTREME and terrifying, and I do not approve.

But man, the things that involve skating just blow my mind. *.* <3
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tittat [Jan. 20th, 2010|04:10 pm]
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New tattoo. :3 Steampunk birdies. Freaking awesome. Bill came with and it was really nice to spend the day with him.

Dated this post for the 20th, since that's when I got them, but as I type this, it's the 26th, and they are just about totally healed up. Raven is amazing.


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goodie [Jan. 8th, 2010|11:59 pm]
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._.;

Good night, hoodis. You were the best rat a girl could ask for. <3
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buckets of fun [Dec. 22nd, 2009|10:31 pm]
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Good movies lately, instead of the mind-numbing crap, and it makes me happy.

Fantastic Mr. Fox was really fun. Highly entertaining and certainly less creepy than the trailers had led me to believe. Also, clustercuss.
The Princess and the Frog was cute. Tiana had adorable dimples.
Avatar was amazing. So many things to just stare at!
And we watched Enchanted on tv. It was ridiculous and cute. And the animated bits were fucking incredible, omg. They need to make an entire disney movie like that. All art nouveau-y and gorgeous.

And shooting things. Which was fun, but underwhelming. *shrug* Mostly, it was fun to see Liz, James, and JohnBradley. :D

And Bill's birthday! Which was cut short, but nice. And he liked his shirt. :)

Also! lol My perpetual warrior gotlander jacket. Which I lovelovelovelovelove. Thank you, bee~!
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